It's a cozy midnight and I'm just meditating on some words from the past week as the new one begins:
"The desirability of virtue and the holiness of reality first appear when the mind is free from the fear and hope of punishment and reward..." - C.S. Lewis
"If you do the hard work, good things will come." - Shelby the Wise
Like I said, it's after midnight. The moon is smiling like the Cheshire cat, and I can't help smile along feeling like Orion is leaning over wondering what's going on with me. The moon might not be full, but I am, full and satisfied, anticipating responsibilities and travels and more to do than the days can hold, but at the same time not worrying about any of it. Somehow, deep inside I feel a quietness that frankly may not last, but right now I know enough, am enough, have enough, mean enough.
Enough. I've done the hard work, and good things are coming.
I started a new journal today. A new journal for a new year, a new week, a new me. All things new.
I write in it about twice a day usually with a candle burning nearby.
What will crop up on these pages one by one, I wonder? What spells and stories, surprises and sorrows?
I recalled C.S. Lewis' words above just now without fully knowing why or how they apply to my life. I guess, in general, I must admit that I am not afraid of punishment and haven't been for some time. What I am getting over or perhaps only recently beginning to get over is the hope of reward. Perhaps now my loves are reordering and desire is growing. It is written that the Lord will give us the desires of our hearts, not just the fulfillment of desire, but give the desires themselves, the longing, the yearning, the wanting that we need.
Good things are coming.
Peace be with you.
2 comments:
Good things are coming is a great thing to remind oneself of, but I think more importantly is the I'm satisfied now deal. I've lived for good things are coming for a long time and they only come when I realize they're happening now. I hope your good things come for many satisfied enough right nows more.
Sarah I think we should be friends in real life lol like outside of the blogging world and outside of bible study. I feel like we would have a lot to talk about. I'm glad I stopped by your blog, it's been awhile since I visited. I'll have to get your phone number sometime so we can keep in touch. I'd like to know you better :)
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